Things of The Past

Found myself in a peculiar situation a couple of days ago.

Just me. By myself. 4 walls, some tea, coffee, a bed, and my laptop.

From mental self-isolation to physical self-isolation.

Funny how life just looks at you and literally puts you into a securely locked room to keep you away from people, and for you to sort it all out.

Message received.

My first question to myself was, why am I sad?

Is it the situation? No. This was expected. Was it my break up? Maybe. But still not certain. I will move on and she will as well. Wish her nothing but the best. She was something else. I am getting sidetracked, aren’t I? My bad.

Digging a bit deeper into my roller coaster theme park of a subconscious, I understood that I am sad because it was necessary to be sad.

It was necessary because in the process of figuring out how to be happy I have focused too much on my current state of sadness. Don’t think about sad things! Don’t think about her! Don’t think about the moments! Don’t think about the feelings! I just end up thinking about all of it.

All of it and more. But the answer was simple. Simple things also come with a lot of understanding and consideration as well. Think about it.

If I ask you to smile now, can you smile for me? Okay, go on and smile for me. I doubt you are doing it, aren’t you? If you are, you are doing it for the sake of it. If it’s genuine then you’re most welcome but you are like the 1%, but still thank you for smiling.

Smiling is one of the most simple things to do. Just an alteration of your face muscles. But, for it to happen genuinely it needs to go through a series of reasoning, justification, consideration, and understanding into why it should happen. It happens in split seconds.

The simple answer was “Live”. We live to die or we die trying to live. Either way, we live. We need to live our life for ourselves. We need to do what we can for ourselves. Happiness starts with us and ends with us.

We love it because we want to. Love is the joy of affection towards another and induces happiness. Our happiness. Your happiness. My happiness.

We ask how someone’s day was because we want to ensure they are happy. We achieve happiness by doing what makes us happy.

Traveling, drinking, eating, flying, singing, talking, working, teaching, sleeping, kissing, touching, feeling, f**king. We do what we feel will make us happy. The joy of freedom. The joy of doing what will make us one step closer to ultimate happiness……..freedom.

We all want to be free. We all want to be happy. So be happy. Do your happy dance. Do what you deeply want to do right now that will put the simplest gesture of happiness on your face. A smile.

Don’t worry about the pain, disappointment, failures, let downs, twists, and turns the road to your true form of happiness entails. It’s just seeing if you have what it takes.

We move forward. We move towards happiness. We move away…from the things of the past.